Give us this day our daily bread,
I get frustrated when things take long or remain hard to do. Both my writing and my other youth ministry are hard for me. I am not a gifted speaker, and am quite shy by nature until I know people, so being outgoing and talking about God are not actually easy for me at all. I constantly pray for God to make me more eloquent in my speaking and to give me the exact words to write here. I beg and plead and try to deal with God before each time I write and speak. He does, in the end, always provide the words, but it doesn’t get any easier. As I think on this well known portion of the Lord’s Prayer, and compare it to what I know about his provision of manna in the wilderness for the Israelites, I begin to see a truth I have missed.
God wants my daily dependence on Him. He wants me to continue to come to him, in complete reliance upon His goodness. He wants me to ask for His help each time and patiently wait on Him. If I don’t need Him, I probably won’t go to Him as often. No ministry, big or small, should ever be done in our own strength or power, and this is His way of reminding me that I am following His calling, not mine. I am doing His will, not mine. He is in charge, He knows what needs to be said or written, I am simply to seek Him and ask for the words He wants to share at His time and location. I need to let go of my desire for control and self-sufficiency and rely completely on Him. That is the whole point. It really shouldn’t be easy, if it is, it might not be His work we are doing?
Father God, give me this day my daily bread. Help me rely on you and you alone as the provider of all I need, from food and water to words and wisdom. Reveal yourself to me, show me your will and your way and help me to walk daily in accordance with your plan for my life.